I feel anxious and sad all the time, I wake up in a sick like state and I keep arguing all the time with people that I don’t want to eat and they keep telling me to eat, because If I was left to eat for myself, I would usually fall on eating sweets and drinking Coffee and Tea all day. Also my eyesight is bad, but I won’t get an appointment with any doctor because I am tired of going to them every 3 months and I got a basic amount of energy to barely finish my day. I am always frowning.

I am semi-Neet since 2022, but I got some stuff going on that will hopefully give a good result on that front.

I feel super anxious all the time about my old mother doings, as she lie all the time and she has a spending problem. The money isn’t the problem here, but rather I get anxious when she buys me tech-related gifts, because she does not have knowledge about tech. Which make me trapped in a cycle with her where I always keep saying to her to not buy me anything, yet she keeps doing that, which make feel frustrated with the whole thing.

My eyesight make me always feel like shit, because there is no medical solution to it and the only way forward is that it will keep getting worse.

I don’t like spending money on useless things, as I appreciate the time it take to generate the amount that money more than useless stuff and I avoid usually benefitting capitalism, hoping that one day, people might all collectively do as me to remove the intense consumerism culture that is rooted on the society.

I feel frustrated that it feels like I am the only one on my community that understand the illusion of religions.

I hate the fact that privacy is dead long time ago and that there is almost no way to keep it fully.

TLDR: I feel like shit everyday, and there does not seem to be final solution to any of my problems. How the heck does people cope?