All the pain it took me to be an adult. The confusion. The rejections. Embarrassment, The work. Endless work. The tricks and short cuts I learned. Like Odin I feel I sacrificed a metaphorical eye , part of my soul ( the part that relates to other humans ) to live with the knowledge I need to understand who and what I am in the universe and survive. And every fucking man MUST go through such a pain to be a man.

But this fuck. This shit stain waste of space. He says no. Gonna wear a diaper and disappoint the millions of ancestors that came before him. Not even gonna pretend to be the man he knows he should be.

It hurts my heart.