I feel like I have lost my identity after 1year of job-searching and subsequently work. I don’t understand how things came to this point, I feel like all of my personality has crushed by the 9-5. Does everyone feel this hollow or am I that unable to exist

I think it counts the countries with NATO bases as occupied which I think is fair, there is no way those countries can do whatever they want with yankee boots on their soil

I have to expunge the last bits of liberalism from myself. Shit like still eating meat once in a while, not wearing a mask when out with friends and ordering delivery when too tired to cook like a fucking treatlord. This site has unironically helped me in a ton of ways and I thank every one of you for this

Greece too

Work has broken my mind to the extent that I regressed to wanting to buy shiny Yu-Gi-Oh cards even if I know its a bad idea. My job isn’t even that hard but it’s still exhausting to have to take the 1h commute, mask and socialize, stress over my responsibilities and fake working even if my energy reserves are done for the day.

I don’t understand if I am just naturally lazy or if the autism+ADHD combo is making this harder than it is for NTs.

If I didn’t have my gf I don’t know if I would be able to stand this situation. I barely manage to now, only by taking drugs and eating emotionally (I have reached my max weight so far).

At least I do some fun stuff from time to time like playing Kingdom Hearts for the first time (it was one of my childhood hyperfixations), watching quality media such as Twin Peaks with my gf and playing with the yugioh cube I assembled with the few friends I still have.

Is there any way to reverse this? My girlfriend strongly suspects she has mild brain damage since she was infected with what was probably covid19 sometime before it became known, and it impacts her daily life somewhat. Is there any point in going to a neurologist? Thanks

Void Stranger but I am not sure if the essaybros have found it

I can picture a type of person that would enjoy Elden Ring for its artistic value but suck at games due to reasons outside their control (bad reaction times, poor concentration, sensory processing difficulties etc) or even due to not having enough time to “git gud”. Why shouldn’t they have their easy mode? Other mediums aren’t that inaccessible to people

It’s absolutely ableist. My ADHD makes me worse at games for sure (and also way less able to tolerate punishing design such as the Dark Souls corpse runs), also some things like tapping rapidly I just can’t do at all. The only answer gamer bros have for me is “git gud” or its even worse evolution “skill issue”.

It really triggers the RSD sometimes but what can you do, I just play easier slop now (especially since work has crushed my soul) and have more fun. I would actually love a website that lists the bullshit in each game like infrequent checkpoints, difficulty spikes, lack of quest markers etc so I can know to avoid them.

I don’t really have intense sensory issues but ketamine analogs help me introspect and think without the anxiety caused by OCD or my emotional baggage so I really like them.

I have to warn you, if you overdo it with ketamine you will destroy your bladder. Also, take EGCG supplements when you trip because it might reduce the bladder damage (according to a study on rats it worked, no study has been done on humans AFAIK but it might work).

1. CrossCode (banger jazz fusion+prog OST, zelda-like dungeons, decent story about self-acceptance, great combat and bosses)
2. Katamari Damacy (cozy, banger OST, wacky gameplay)
3. ZeroRanger (GOATed OST, great aesthetic and story-gameplay integration)
4. OFF (disturbing atmosphere and a story that’s up to interpretation, artistically brilliant imo)
5. Xanadu Next (japanese isometric dungeon crawler similar to Diablo but without the random loot and with a different build system, the music and atmosphere is pretty good, I also thought the story was pretty decent, make sure you collect all the records if you play it)
6. Trails in the Sky trilogy (JRPGs with a great positional battle system, banger music and very charming and well written characters. Also, the world building is great. The next game in the series lost the charm imo, but most people like it as much)

7. Ys: The Oath in Felghana (isometric action JRPG with gameplay that is a mixture of hack&slash, bullet hell and platformer, it’s pretty unique. Also yhe music is good)

The issue is sitting on a desk instead of a couch for even more of the day. I already had a low tolerance for such game systems (dunno if it’s the ADHD), so now it’s absolutely demolished and I feel you

First full-time employment, and employment in general.

I would love to, but I work in a huge open office so people could see what I was doing instead of pretending to work after my energy reserves have run out

I started playing WoW again (I was clean for 6 years). Surprisingly the game is still fun even if more soulless than its past iterations. The MoP remix event is also really fun, my Nightborne Warlock is completely overpowered now

Best med I have ever taken for my combination of disorders (ADHD and OCD), it made me feel normal. However, it reduced my sleep time to 3h so I had to stop taking it. As far as sexual side effects go, it caused my ejaculations and orgasms to desync by a few seconds if that makes sense, was kind of funny actually

I believe you would like Space Dandy then

My current hyperfixation is the development of a Yu-Gi-Oh cube to play with friends. It’s essentially a large collection of cards that can be used standalone that you draft from in order to produce your deck for that session. It’s really interesting because I have to find keep the power level low but also add interesting synergies for the players to exploit.

My enduring special interests are anime (in general), yu-gi-oh (even though I am bad at it), early 2000s otaku culture and japanese doujin music, and Falcom (games, music team and the company’s fucked up history).

Thanks for your answers everyone, we read them all. She considers autism a more serious possibility than before she read them so they helped

Eh I would argue that the Cuba episode and the airplane episodes differ on how the subject matter is presented. In the Cuba ep it is played straight, while in the airplane episode Archer is depicted as a racist and is the butt of the joke