Just need to vent, I swear to god the revolutionary potential in America is just not there. So many people just have zero ideological conviction and because we’re not subject to the worst of the empire’s violence many feel no constant need to fight it, an encampment can end and so many people just go to brunch. The constant need to fight against the empire’s propaganda, infiltrated orgs, and most of all the powerful combination of privilege and individualism is so incredibly exhausting. All that feels good to do is sit home, read theory and talk with my closest comrades, I can’t be led into another unprepared police raid by people who had just collaborated with the kops, or in an org led ultimately by some undemocratically elected leader, or talk to another “ML” or anarchist white boy that can’t even admit racism and imperialism still fuckin exists.
I don’t think people not from here realize how vile American culture really is. It is the most cynical, atomized, detached existence. There are no communities. There is no kinship. There is only me and mine and you and yours and leave me alone, and everyone fucking loves it. They love it. There is no fixing it. I’ve tried for nearly half my life, nearly 15 years of trying to change Americans, and I am exhausted. No one wants it. The third-worldists are right about this one.
I’ve tried for four years to emphasize exactly why I gave up on Amerikans, why I just let myself bitter into genuine hatred. You’ve nailed every single point. The Amerikan ethos has never been “give me your poor, your shunned, and your throwaways”-- it has always been "this is mine, hands off it or die." Fuck it. Let them wallow in their own blood and shit like the pigs they are. My energy is better saved and better spent just looking for a way out. I’ve got nothing and no one to preserve here.