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Never felt anything like it, but it brought me back to how I was in my childhood and I could even play more video games and enjoy myself more.
Like, damn.
Just one edible, I took. Sativa. Peach-flavored. From Beyond / Hello.
Before that, I took half of an edible.
I was relaxed and my head was swimming, but I felt in control.
I had to lie down at first, though, but I wasn’t worried.
My interoception (feeling your own body) was on fire though.
Idk, my depression gets a lot worse when I just veg. I’m not saying be productive for your capitalist overloads, but being productive for myself is really important. Reading, learning, helping people, building things, all make me happy to live my life.
I think this is just me using the word “productive” literally and others using it to mean…something else? Idk I’m autistic and it’s hard to communicate sometimes. Lying in bed and reading a book is not typically what someone means when they say “be productive” in my own experience. In fact, I’ve been called lazy for doing that exact thing many, many times.
The dictionary definition is actually quite positive, in contrast to what you and I’m sure many people associate with it. According to Cambridge, “resulting in or providing a large amount or supply of something” or “having positive results”. If that’s applied to your passions and goals, then I think that’s not a bad aspiration.
Yeah, productivity isn’t bad per se; doing it for yourself and maybe for others is the best way, I feel.
Doing it for capitalism or for alienating work? Nah.
Work is… good. Your labor is good. But under capitalism, we’re alienated from our labor.
So. Much. This.