Slightly related, the other day I was outside when a group of four helicopters flew over, likely doing some sort of money-wasting bullshit training for the somewhat nearby national guard base. Happens frequently. They’re so goddamn fucking loud though that I stopped what I was doing and just sat there staring up with my head bent all the way back. While I was staring, just kinda thinking like “wow… look at this shit humans do…” my brain slipped over into “the sunken place” or whatever of thoughts. Probably brought on from 9 months of straight horror we’ve all been seeing from Gaza. I see the helis, hear their sounds, and it’s not far to “what if these were trying to kill me… or just kill all people outdoors in my neighborhood including me.” Shit made me do one of those shakes like when you get a chill to break myself out of that image that was forming in my mind of the US army choppers just flying over US cities and leveling everything and everyone in their paths… seems less far fetched by the day