Lately I’ve just had a fucking hair trigger on crying and if I ever do anything slightly wrong or upset my partner I feel such overwhelming guilt and start crying and then my partner feels worse for upsetting me and then I feel even worse.

Like, this morning we were having a totally normal conversation, but then I said something rude that I didn’t process correctly, she was hurt, and then instead of being normal about it I had a fucking breakdown. Which sucks for me and is really not fair to her.

If I mess up cooking food or planning an afternoon I become inconsolable. Especially if it was for my partner, like if I can’t do things right for her what is even the point. I think I’ve cried more days in the last two weeks than I haven’t.