There are a lot of reasons but it just boils down to “when I’ve quit, life gets better, when I smoke, life gets worse.”

I’ve done that entire “maybe if I solve X mental issue I can smoke again” strategy, and when I quit, that issue gets solved, and when I start up again because the issue was solved, the issue comes back.

Some issues have been:

I’m not comfortable with myself

I feel isolated

I’m bad with money

I don’t like my job

I feel depressed

Maybe there’s some deep underlying issues I could try to therapy my way out of, but the obvious common denominator seems to be weed.

It’s hard to explain it, but those are my observations.