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The original was posted on /r/femboymemes by /u/piokle8 on 2024-11-13 19:40:21+00:00.
(I don’t know if I should post it here (I’m sorry if I shouldn’t) but I know he scrolls this subreddit sometimes and I’m hoping he will see this and let me explain. I made an account on reddit just to post this. Although, I understand if he wishes not to speak to me ever again)
In case he won’t read it all I wanna say to him: this was all a big misunderstanding and I never wanted to stop talking to you nor have I ever lied to you, like I promised that I won’t. If you want to give me this chance, you know where to find me or just text me here or on the minecraft server when I keep it on.
For context: I met a femboy from near my country (I don’t want to give too much info to respect his privacy) about 3 months ago online (it sounds little but for us it was enough to get attached). I already almost lost him after less than a month, but in the end he saw how much I cared, he understood me and gave me a second chance. And I did everything I could to make the most of this chance. We talked daily for hours and got very close. He was the first person I felt safe to open to about everything and anything. I’ve been having a sad, meaningless life before him and he gave me hope that I hadn’t have in years. I’ve never felt so understood by anyone before and he was always there to help me with any doubts I was having about me or my life. And I was always there for him when he needed anything, any support. He always let me explain everything I had to say with all the details. He knew how I can be hurt the most and always reassured me to never do that.
Now, the problem (without too much detail): This monday I couldn’t keep it in me and I had to talk to him about something that happened on sunday (it wasn’t anything bad that I did or that he did, but his very close friend who talked to me). I wanted to tell him everything but in the middle he thought that I’m making this story up becasue I’m afraid to tell him I got bored of him and don’t want to talk to him anymore (which all of this is false) and blocked me without letting me explain myself or the situation to the end. I’m not surprised he believes his friend more than me (that’s quite obvious considering the time he knows me and that friend), but I just wanted to be listened to. When this friend talked to me I knew I was on a lost position in this situation and whatever I would do, it couldn’t end happilly for me (unless he listened to me and believed me) but I couldn’t keep it to myself and I wanted to be honest as I always was.
It’s not the full story of the 3 months so I would like to ask everyone who is reading this to not judge anyone from this story.
I’m a heartbroken and desperate wreck right now and I have no idea how long will this keep with me, I can’t focus on anything else. Typing this here now, gives me a little peace for a moment. The only upside of this story is that I was finally able to open to my parents who are very understanding and helpful.
Thank you to anyone who read this all and once again I’m sorry if this is not an appropriate place to post this. I hope he sees this posts and at least gives me a chance to explain myself to the end and show evidence I have of this talk with his friend. I don’t know if I will ever be able to trust anyone ever again like I trusted him.
I’m still not sure if I should post it here or anywhere really, for various reason but it’s not time for my typical overthinking. I guess here goes nothing…