EFFORT POST
Fuuuuuuuuuck. Am I being too āall or nothingā about this?
After holding my third corporate job (for going on 6 months now), itās all the fucking same. And itās going to be damn hard to convince me otherwise. Always a fucking business started by some CEO whose parents are rich, and they say thereās an opportunity to make your way up the ladder and other opportunities for career growth (devoting your entire existence to capital in this squid game esque way is truly draconian but I digress), though funny how they donāt mention all the nepotistic hierarchies in between which are akin to high school cliques. Seems like such a brazenly obvious (and extremely normalized) pyramid scheme. But hey, you get nearly a six figure salary for producing 0 value to any humans whatsoever in the computer touching factory because someone is in the position to shuffle around capital. But donāt you talk about a raise unless itās the year end! You have to know that youāre paid based on the very real idea of āmarket value.ā
Then you have service workers, care takers, social workers and the like. Since those careers are not contributing to the L I N E in any meaningful way (though itās becoming more common with the plague on humanity that is private equity), they pay a lot less. I donāt know if there is enough evidence to say that itās a āpunishmentā by capitalists or whatever, but Iām starting to think that it really doesnāt matter.
You reframe it in both contexts though, and itās exactly that. If you pay a computer-toucher significantly more than someone caring for humans in the world, the value judgment could not be more clear. I donāt know why Iām acting surprised, I lived through Covid and saw these people (who undeniably showed their importance) being shat on relentlessly. Thereās stuff Iāve been trying to unsee for years and I just fucking canāt anymore. Talk about man-made horrors beyond your comprehension
I need to bite the bullet and get the fuck out but how the hell do you enter the biggest phase of change in your life when you follow the same patterns each and every day?
iām one of those computer touchers and i do it for the high salary.
the corporate world is likewise horrendous for me (like it is for almost all neuro-diverse people) but i do it because the money i save after working there for 2 or 3 years affords me the freedom to leave when those patterns start to make me hate life.
i think iām done doing it from now on because not only are we producing zero value, but i think weāre actively hurting humanity and iāve learned that my colleagues donāt care so long as they can afford the mortgages on their houses (yes plural) and put their children into the best schools.
i find that as i keep progressing career wise the work gets more evil and my colleagues have even more shitty, privileged takes due to the disgustingly high salaries; so i searched and found another job thatās as far away for corporate-hood as possible and hope to stay there for as long as i can. the pay is relatively shit like it is for the service workers (iāll be one of them), but iāll think iāll actually be helping humanity while getting to use almost the same skillset.
our system admires and rewards psychopaths, so itās unfortunately up to you to find ways of coping with it. in my case: i use talk therapy to help me identify the self-defeating patterns that cause me to feel like life is hopeless or stupid and redirect that angst/anger into something that helps me or at least minimizes the impact of those negative feelings; my career change is an action iām taking to this end.