I’m completely inept at organizing changes in my life, which means I waste a many weeks being ‘stuck’ when I could be out living/working somewhere interesting/etc. I was watching Top Gear the other day and I realized that what I really need is to have ‘producers’ like they do on the show who take care of the logistics of things so that the protagonist can just sail through. I realize that this doesn’t come for free so I would be willing to join a group where one such plan is made for the whole group, or switch to a job where having someone plan your life (at least the working part) is a requirement of the job. In other words, I am willing to trade some of my sovereignty/independence for this. Any recommendations? (Just for context, I am not in the US and I’m not old.)
Hah ! No, quite the opposite. I do almost all the cooking and cleaning, because I like making my partner happy. But I can’t find the motivation to do it for myself. When I was single, I would invite friends over for food as often as I could, because I love cooking, and I’d make exciting and challenging things that we’d all enjoy. But if it’s just me I spend a few hours being indicisive and then just eat so much toast I feel sick and feel sad.
The structure my partner provides is someone who expects meals to be at meal times, and will judge me if I just start eating a family sized pack of snacks at 3pm because I’m peckish. Or will be disappointed if I promise to do something then just scroll my phone instead. At the time it annoys me not being free to indulge myself, but when I actually get the chance I realise how little I enjoy it. It’s been really helpful to realise that just because I hate structure and rules and people’s expectations… I hate the goblin I become without them much more.