I’m posting because I’m a bit bummed out I guess. I began the whole diagnosis process because I wanted clarity of wtf is going on with me. A clear no it’s not ADHD would maybe even have been a more satisfying answer than this.
Apparently I either have ADHD and my high intelligence allows me to compensate so much it masks symptoms for the tests. They did two intelligence tests which came out way above average it seems. I hope this doesn’t come off as bragging. It really isn’t as much of a gift as it may seem.
Or I don’t have ADHD but my cognitive function shows some similarities. And I’m also super smart. But somehow I can’t put it to use when it comes to my life due to issues with emotional regulation and tolerance for frustration which I don’t have much off.
How this affects my life is I can’t focus or do things I don’t find interesting at all. Same with things that don’t offer anything new to me. Being intelligent means I understand and figure out new things super quickly. But that means I get bored quicker and then struggle to do the thing. So I hopped jobs, surprise everyone how crazy good I am at the job and what a fast learner I am and whatnot. Then I hop job to the next. It never amounts to anything. And I got burnout or boreout. Depression. All that fun stuff.
Buf They can’t tell for sure which one it is by the metrics they use. Which just is so unsatisfying after it took to long.
The good news is the result still qualifies me for trying out meds should I decide to do so. Same for getting therapy paid for by insurance. It’s nice to have options so I’m happy for that.
Thanks for letting me vent my frustrations.
Looking on the bright side, you can now get meds and therapy which are the things that will truely help if you have ADHD. I would call that a win.
Absolutely. I’ll look into getting therapy or coaching from someone specialized in ADHD. Probably going to take a long time but I hope it helps in the long run.
We’re still very much in the dark ages when it comes to mental health. It sounds like the metrics may need some fine tuning. But if you find a medication works well for you, you’ll have your diagnosis for sure.
True. This was a diagnosis from an expert in the field who also does research on ADHD in adults. So I’m sure this is pretty well founded in current research.
The psychologist and psychiatrist I saw before that said I can’t have ADHD because I had good grades in school and uni.
I had a similar result by a psychiatrist that not only didn’t diagnose me, but also didn’t help me with any of my other issues either. She told me to get an ADHD coach and then charged me hundreds of $ out the butt for not helping with anything. You should feel proud of yourself for still trucking on forward despite the rejections.
Also just so you know, I know the people who diagnosed you were specialists, but I could have recalled that the ADHD exam will often show a deficiency in one area even if your other scores are soaring! So I think it’s honestly totally reasonable that you got the results you did. I hope that the diagnosis gives you some peace of mind and direction for your next steps, both in meds and emotional/life functioning business. :)
I feel the same way. I was supposedly diagnosed back when I was 6 (I’m 42 now), but it’s hard for me to get meds anymore because every doc wants me to get another diagnosis and I won’t do that. I am the same way when it comes to intelligence and doing stuff but then get bored quickly. I also pick up on new jobs very quickly and usually surprise the boss. All I can say is, I understand and hopefully ADHD gets more attention and stops being looked at as a fake disorder to get stimulants…
I feel you, I’m in a similar boat.
As a kid I excelled in school but was often bored, so much so that I eventually refused to go. My parents were worried and took me to a child psych, who determined I was gifted.
Now as an adult, I’m a mess. I’m constantly “painfully bored”, unsure how to relax, unable to do things I enjoy because, unless I’m extremely interested/hyperfocused, I can’t really enjoy them. My psych tells me to keep a list of the things I enjoy doing to help fill out my free time but it doesn’t help because, in those moments of painful boredom, I can’t actually force myself to do anything on the list. The only thing I want to do is work on whatever project I’m currently obsessed with, and if there’s no such project, I just feel painfully bored. And I never actually finish any of these projects; I’m constantly jumping from one obsession to the next.
Work is similarly a mess. I’m fortunate enough to have a full time job that aligns with my personal interests/hobbies. But what this means for me is, I’m hyperfocused when the work is interesting, but completely unable to focus when it’s not. There were times I would pretend to be working but I’d actually be out wandering the city, doing only a couple hours of real work each day, and there were times I’d pull something like 80 hour weeks where all I could think about was the work. I manage to hide the mess pretty well from my company though; they think I’m great, gave me a huge bonus, promoted me to senior, etc.
I’m on burnout leave now though, so I’ve got a fair bit of time off to sort myself out. And after jumping from psych to psych for a while, I found one who sent me off to get a formal ADHD assessment. It was my sister actually who kick-started the process for me, as she recently got diagnosed with it (as an adult) and suggested that I look into it for myself. I’ll get the results next week, so let’s see.
I hope you’ll get a result that is helpful to you. A lot of what you say resonates with me. Not being able to choose what you can do without it being a pain is a struggle for sure. It sounds like you found a job which at least kind of works for you sometimes. I’m currently in the process of changing jobs. Again.
I’m vaguely in a similar boat, I had developed basically all the ADHD coping strategies and seem to have masked very well. I basically force myself to be organised so I don’t for example miss appointments, and not necessarily in a healthy way.
I only realised I had ADHD about a year ago in my 30s. I got the diagnosis in the end, and medications have been helpful though we’re still working on finding just the right combination.
If the medications help then that’s good, and if not hopefully something else will.
