I was deathly afraid vampires were going to sneak into my house at night and give me the S U C C. So I used to sleep with a pillow around my neck, as if ol’ Count Drac couldn’t just yank the pillow away. I also fully believed vampires couldn’t come inside unless invited in but that logic didn’t get in the way of me still believing they were going to break in somehow.
Not an actual fear of something that would happen, but there was a nightmare I had when I was a young Christian boy (around 5-7 years old) that terrified me.
I dreamt that I got separated from my mother while we went shopping, got lured into hell by a demon, and placed into a contraption that turned me into Satan’s second-in-command. I remember growing horns and doing an evil laugh the moment before I woke up.
I was borderline traumatized. I talked to my preacher father about it, but said I saw it happen to someone else, as I didn’t want him to imagine that happening to his son. But now, as a middle-aged queer atheist, I embrace my role as Satan’s loyal devotee, even if I don’t understand what I did to move up the ranks so quickly.
That’s so cool!
“It is better to reign in hell, than to serve in Heaven” — John Milton, Paradise Lost, Book II
I’m a Dom, so if I’m going to reign in hell, then hell just got a lot kinkier.