When I said I wouldn‘t care about Locktober rules, Luke probably thought it was a good thing. But there is another point of view to that. I still didn‘t make him cum except at the very beginning of October and now when the month is over I still feel he can go a little longer, so no cumming for poor Luke 🤭 If we were participating he would probably be getting an orgasm by now. How long before I let him have some relief? Who knows … I have a certain idea, but I am not sharing it, in case I do something completely different. You know how it goes, I just like the freedom of choice I have (unlike somebody ehm) 😄

But just because I won‘t let him cum, doesn‘t mean I don‘t think he doesn‘t deserve a reward. I know that orgasm would be the ultimate goal. But I think it‘s important to train him that reward is what I give him, not always what he craves the most. Because I think it could, in time, create this expectation, that every time he does something right he gets to cum. And if I then decide on a different kind of reward, it could feel disappointing and create wrong expectations. The reward should be happiness to please me, to know I am proud of him. Which I am, a month without any kind of relief is without a doubt an achievement 😊

So instead of orgasm, I‘ve decided to give him a teasing session with something extra. I‘ve used oil to lube his dick, but also to oil my tits. I know he loves them. Sometimes I feel like they hold half the power I have over him 🤭 So having my oiled tits out on display like that is a sure way to make his dick rock solid. I could see those veins and I knew his whole body and mind were internally screaming to fuck me. But his submissive brain is so well trained that he knows I am off limits. We spoke about that earlier and I found that very interesting. That after almost two years of pussyfree denial, he really feels like he doesn‘t deserve it. I wouldn’t have guessed how much he internalized it. But I guess the constant teasing and denial and sexualized friendzoning do condition him eventually. To be fair I find it incredibly hot. To feel unattainable gives me all the power. Because after all I can decide to let him fuck me at any time, but he can do nothing but lust 🥵

To give him something nice to imagine I‘ve let him push his hard dick close to my tits. Like if he was about to get a titjob, except that wasn‘t what I’d planned. Just having his penis touching me is enough 🤭 For two reasons: first I was already jerking him with caution because I didn‘t want to make him cum. And the other – even if I were planning to, I would choose a different method. It‘s somewhat tricky to keep the penis between breasts. But given how much he loves them I think this was a reward worth waiting for. 😈

To top it off I‘ve told him to play with them on camera for me. He was back in the cage for this part, but I didn‘t realize I had hand in there blocking the view, so I don‘t think it‘s visible how was his dick cramped in there the whole time he was playing with me, but I think you can imagine 🤭. Since my tits were so nicely lubed, it would be a shame if my subscribers didn‘t see them squeezed, right? 😈 I really like it when he does stuff to help me film my content. I mean he almost always does, but when I specifically instruct him what I want and how I want to show off, so people can enjoy the view and jerk off to me. While I am not cucking him, it feels like playing on the edge of it, when I tell him to do things for my viewers. It‘s like if I told him to help me pick clothes. Sure, It‘s for nobody specific, but it‘s not „just“ for him either. I‘ve been thinking maybe I‘ll publish some video to cum tribute one day, to let him really see what people do with my content 🤭 That might be a fun community project 😇

Anyway, enjoy however you can or can’t 🥰