I mean, the death of the state is the end goal, but in a way where society is too advanced and educated to need it. I have a hard time imagining where central planning is decentralized over time, or if central planning can somehow operate in a stateless society.
Speaking as a person of color myself, I totally understand what you feel, and I know there isn’t a magic answer, but I implore you, please don’t give up. You being alive is a good start. I want you to live to see the crackers get put in the dirt.