Everytime I leave the house to do anything, I either
- get shit from people because I am wearing a mask -either minimizing and simply gaslighting comments, or plain agression
- when they seemy mask they decide to share their grief with me. It is so hard to listen to all the stories of people dying and becoming disabled from covid, shared by maskless people. I tell them masks work, and they should vaccinate. But it is so tiring. I am just trying to survive. I wish others would help each other survive. I am already tired from my chronic illnesses. Seeing the COVID numbers rise and no one masking or doing anything and staying in denial is horrible for my mental health. I am trying my best to hang on to my sanity. I wish you all that you stay sane too.
I also had social anxiety, i was even hospitalized for it. Seeing maskless people nowadays is borderline triggering to me. Which means I do not go out unless i I need to. Anyway, i will take feeling awkward over getting more disabled anyday.
IF more people wore masks, you would not need to feel that way about it. Some people might feel the same as you and not say it. Wearing them can empower others to do the same.