oh no, im really sorry to know that you have to struggle with that, hope your life will get better with whatever decisions you make in the future,

throughout my life I have seen many bad things that people have done, some of them adhere to a religion and some of them are atheists, so what I mean is whoever the person is, if he is a jerk he is still a jerk, whatever beliefs he holds , not all people who follow a religion are good and not all people who are atheists are bad and vice versa

we cannot generalize our views about what is right and what is wrong to everyone, everyone has their own version of right and wrong,

So what I hate are stupid people and jerks

pardon my english