Well I think I might be autistic, I’ve wondered why I feel so different from other people, why it feels like I am taking my entire life, why when I lose focus, or am not being focused on i become completely silent and struggle to make even simple comments, and why I have had to watch and learn from others to become remotely social. I guess those are all signs of autism. I took that RAADS-R test and got a score of 141, which is slightly above the mean for autistics, I also took a few other of those quizzes.
But my question is what happens now? What do I do? I don’t feel comfortable asking my parents if I can get examined, I can’t really afford to do it myself, but I guess I could try. I don’t want to just start saying that I’m autistic, and have to mention that it’s self diagnosed because I think we all know the stigma around that.
Heck I’m still in the stage (or I assume it’s a stage because it matches that one post here where they talked about their stages of realizing they have autism, and I related completely to it) where I’m not sure if I am not just faking this whole thing. So what do I do now?
Can I ask why you’re not comfortable talking to your parents about it? Don’t get me wrong, I understand the reasons a person might not be comfortable with it, my dad was not an example of a model reaction to it, but everyone’s reasons are different. Do you fear they will reject you? Hurt you? Punish you?
Hey I actually managed to have a conversation about it and we’re scheduling an appointment! The conversation was insanely funny too, my mom was talking about how time oriented I was as a child, like if we went to the store mid day it would get me so angry, and how much I loved lining up and sorting my hotwheels. I was so shocked that such clear signs had been given when I was a child, and they didn’t realize ir that I just was laughing, and now I’ve got an appointment