there seems to be no reliable resource for minors. all of them involve notifying your parents in some way or are there just to prevent you from killing yourself. there are no resources i could find, online or in person, free or paid, that provide private care.
i guess something i should add to my post is, i’m not looking for someone to talk to or vent my feelings to. im looking for a solution. Calling a warmline every time i feel down does not sound reliable. im mainly concerned with how i can live through life without feeling how i am right now, not just relieving the symptoms.