I get it mostly from actual party members. That said my understanding is second hand, the actual groups in the party split along several axis and my Mandarin is aggressively middling. So take what I say with several grains of salt. Also keep in mind party members are quite rightly restricted in what they can say and I am reading between the lines.
Revenge.
EDIT: damn it someone took it so I have to be earnest
I love the world, I love every single human, even the shits fighting us. I want every part of it to blossom into its full beauty. I want to turn the stars green. I want us all to dance among the universe forever. I want us all to join into cosmic union without losing our own selves.
None of this will happen in our lifetime. But if I can hasten it’s coming by even an hour, what glory can surpass that?