Getting through demon souls on the ps3 is interesting, gotta unlearn a lot of things from dark souls and get used to the hp recovery system. Dark souls was very much a hit your head against the wall till it gives demon souls because of my limited inventory I have to go farm more hp recovery things. The limited inventory system is also a bit annoying but I’m getting used to it.
Watching the 100th leftist-ish vid on why dating sites are bad, idk what I get out of this other than adding 
to my mood or at least I would if I didn’t just have a good bowl of spaghetti and coffee. Used my new can opener to open my sauce and now I’m hooked 
it’s not one of those twisty turn ones it’s a single piece of metal that I can make holes in things. Honestly I don’t think I can go back now to my old can opener 
Had a dream that I was gonna go camping merely because this girl I liked thought it was cool, ended up fighting giant centipedes and bunking with this super sketchy guy who just happened to share the same nickname as me 
idk guess I see myself as sketch. Not beating the down bad allegations 
Yt algo giving me “are you down bad” vids first of all fuck you algo 
and B yes 
I’ve done stuff that I won’t say I regretted but def wouldn’t have if I realized I had no shot to begin with. Need to get into some niche subjects/hobbies no one knows about just for me going forward.
Creepypasta “If you see the peepee poopoo man buying gas station dick pills at 2 am don’t ask him to give you some…” 
Yeah base game is not great the new versions seems to do more in installing for you currently playing 1.5 and it’s alright some bugs. https://www.moddb.com/mods/vtmb-unofficial-patch/downloads got it here and I’m terrible with modding but it more or less fixes it for you no looking and adding stuff to folders.
I get the urge sometimes to write fanfics where I pick the most boring characters and make them trans and nd, idk feel like I was boring as hell back before I knew but that had to do with repression/masking.
Thought this was gonna be Toad with human legs, still good my voice is annoying as toad’s anyway
Started cooking again instead of depression sleeping, idk still not feeling great but now my home smells of roasted veggies and beans. I think this is a start of something I hope…
VTM: bloodlines playing as a really appreciate how well the game holds up (with the unofficial patch that is) been watching hunter the parenting so got in the mood for world of darkness again. Trying to get through it without cheating but if I stop having fun then I’ll just keep playing around, gotten through the game legit before so nothing spoiled.
Love feeling an overwhelming sense of dread and feeling bad for other’s people’s actions, must love it with how much I do it otherwise why do I keep doing it 
fr tho this blows, I’ll keep forcing a smile and trying to be optimistic but damn if I don’t want to just not exist for a bit 
Crop dusted the meat and cheese section when I went shopping today :im-doing-my-part:
One of my cat’s just cuddled me for like 30 minutes
felt nice probably the most affection I’ve felt in a long while. Ngl this week kinda sucked at least my cats love me.