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  • Thanks for the gratitude. That well is so dried up in this world. Gratitude givers have chosen to become gatekeepers with selective preference. Perhaps whoever said it, said it the best - value of some things and people is only known after they go away. If my mind flipped I’d just desert the internet altogether at some point, as I see no point in just giving and not receiving even gratitude, and its not like I see much value in the internet with transactional interactions.


  • We are in a somewhat similar position, if you read this comment. It can get a little ranty.

    I hold onto some disagreements with grad over men’s rights and western feminism, so I no longer talk as much here, purely out of respect for this place, until views align, or I get discussion without the labelling, or some middle ground possibly gets established eventually over time. I expect that, because absurdity on both redpill and bluepill sides is becoming obvious, and is not the gender war its manufactured out to be. This happened even on Lemmy, and hexbear banned my Lemmy account for it. But I try to help grad covertly, and help the political discourse by both online talk and by trying to disseminate leftist facts as peptalk to family and friends, and deradicalise away the “western” love they have. Even managed to grind gears of an old family member yesterday when she said lower class workers and maids are happiest due to using social media and not buying things, by giving her a nice 2 minute lecture on how capitalism creates advertisements, its psychological roots (she is a psychologist lol, me giving her lessons on Freud’s theories and Edward Bernays) and how the happiest people are the ones who are healthy and rich in terms of free time, and who do not get their time eaten by these capitalist structures and machines.

    I am beginning to hate the internet, and am realising internet people simply do not matter in the long run. The “copium” of internet community can last only so long (internet’s Golden Age happened pre-2010, post-Golden Age has ended now), and you need to have a rocksolid offline life of your own with the power of being able to disconnect at your own will at any time. Even better if you champion solitary lifestyle with minimal or no dependence on external friends or relations, and even family, with being able to not go clinically insane.

    I have done enough for the privacy community, keep pushing back on the security extremists evangelising FOSS community with Big Tech love, and almost nobody supports me in pushing back against these assholes. It does not matter that I documented 5 years of evidence tirelessly, selflessly and with no fucks given for donations, money or my own life and sanity and sometimes even sleep. Nobody fucking listens to me. No critical support, and I end up being mislabelled purposely (narcissists create lies to smear and gaslight as self-defense cope) by these GrapheneOS loonies as a conspiracy privacy extremist, just for actually ending up advocating proper way to live a r/privatelife. I have tried telling Lemmy admins, they both sided me. I fucking want to unmod myself from Lemmy’s privacy and technology communities, because I get no critical backbone support. Fuck this shit. FUCK! I am angry and pissed I literally am the near perfect person on the internet that FOSS community would want as an internet militant that defends the FOSS and privacy principles on the frontlines.

    Ugh, sorry I think I made this a thing about me…

    But let me just say it concisely, this lack of empathy from all sides, no internet support, a very silent lonely solitude life I cause by holing myself up away from society to want peace and fix myself, only to end up with moments where I fucking hear silence itself (no tinnitus), an absolute survivalist soul and mind literally made up of steel, being a narcissist-detecting truth teller with foresight all my life… I do not even want to speak of the fucking sad life I live. I am just so strong, resilient and potent that I continue to not break, and even “carry the water” for others selflessly. Maybe if I went clinically insane, maybe someone would help me out of pity or I off myself out of fun or spite. I do not even fucking know what has gotten into me because I have never typed shit like this publicly. WTF. Why does my soul just never break to end the cycle altogether? Is there a purpose to all this? Is there a destiny for me that disallows me to, like the Groundhog Day movie?

    I never tell anyone of the pain I live with, I tell no one and keep it to myself like the most naturally Stoic gigachad you could find. And its not like I am ugly. I have been told by both offline friends and online friends and acquaintances that I am wasting my potential by not getting a girlfriend I easily could, being really good looking, both face and physique, the cleanest and most brutally honest motherfucking soul everyone around them knows, being the helper and whatever else. Maybe I was too nice in life, but I am not sure if I even became a doormat. I carry. I carry, I lead, I just fucking carry for everyone with a back that never breaks. I am a fucking donkey. The biggest idiot to embrace this planet.

    Sorry to whoever reads this fucking bullshit I wrote for no reason. I just never break on the inside, and end up vomiting like this.



  • Buy yourselves a Victorinox Ranger ($60) for life, best SAK. Get their firestarter addon for like $5, that fits into the corkscrew. Single biggest “prep” item and BIFL upgrade to life. Boomers are now handing over their old Huntsman SAKs to children. Get fit and learn to survive on low food and water.

    The next step is community rebuilding, not becoming a lonewolf guerilla Arnold Schwarzenegger or Sylvester Stallone, which is only helpful in apocalypse.






  • I do gauge myself on the redpill/blackpill part of the spectrum. And I do need to investigate, but it is not easy. But I think it is worth it.

    I will not pretend I just pretended everything I said here, because these are indeed my current beliefs. But I will admit I wanted this engagement in comments, to be able to hear the leftist side of things to learn more, since I have watched enough content from the centrist/conservative entities I mentioned. There is now something more for me to ponder over.

    I have a question: why is there no guide or recommendations for these kind of topics, the way I make guides for digital privacy? I do have an answer for it in the form of social engagement being a circus, no matter which camp, but it may not be a sufficient answer. Also, anti-imperialism is a large focus of the communist struggle.

    Since you head this instance, I do want to tell it is not that I was salty about the ban, but about being called a misogynist with no dialogue exchange. Although most people will not want to consider other POVs unlike me, or are merely outing themselves by mistake, so I think there needs to be a consideration not just for gauging to ban someone, but to have a dialogue. I created this dialogue, nobody wanted to have it with me. And all of you that are talking to me, are doing so because there is a shared trust considering my year long history here, and because some recognise my tech privacy work. I think gauging people needs a lot more work.

    Ping @[email protected] and other admins for the last paragraph






  • Why is polygamy (or in your words promiscuity) inherently worse than monogamy?

    https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/fulfillment-at-any-age/201304/the-long-term-psychological-effects-of-having-multiple-sex

    The only issues are not limited to verbal acceptance and consent. There is something post that.

    The social player thing is not just a woman problem, in fact I’d say it’s worse coming from men. As another commenter said, men do that shit all the time and only when women start to engage in similar behaviors does it become a problem. I don’t think there’s anything wrong with holding certain values for yourself, I myself could never be a social “player” (meaning casually sleeping around, if I’m interpreting that right)

    Men can be really aggressive thanks to testosterone, and women are nurturing and the birthgivers of human society. This forms a very large basis behind the social constructs that are binary gender roles we have today, that have remained stagnant since centuries. Biochemistry does not change, our scientific and social understanding grows as humans.

    Social player in the way I say means man/woman who plays around with multiple relationship partners, not necessarily having casual sex, but exploiting them for monetary or social validation favours, although in many cases, casual sex is a factor.

    I threw myself out here to see the responses I get, so I can read them, and if there are any good recs, which I think is the most important quality of a true leftist – self-critique. I am not sure if I want to stick around because I did not like how I was called a misogynist, silenced for 4 days, and that just made me feel miserable for what are conflicting views and not necessarily Tate-ist ideas.