I heard people straight up think that maddy was like, crazy and wrong and trying to get her to commit suicide together, or reading the most overtly trans scenes as being her memories/hallucinations not isabel/owen’s so there’s definitely a million ways to misinterpret if you aren’t looking for the transness.

I was with you in terms of hyping it up a little too much the first time and being sort of let down (but also just astonished and devastated that the movie ended when it did). It was almost more impactful the second time but that is probably due to personal circumstances of mine

I read that comment when you posted it! Doing my best to learn I guess, even before I accepted this might be a thing lol

I have no idea if stimulants will work well for me. I’ve definitely used caffeine to self medicate most of my adult life so maybe? But either way I know it won’t be a magic bullet, just one thing to try if a doc recommends it I guess. I honestly don’t know what not being able to mask would look like for me, but I work from home on a computer and have very accepting friends so hopefully the adjustment wouldn’t be too rough? I try not to downplay (or play up) my own struggles but all things considered I’ve lived a pretty chill life I feel like. Lots of self-repression and some serious struggles socially at times but you know, not outright horribly traumatic? So maybe that helps idk.

Thanks for your prolific support and advice all over the site! I just got new insurance so I’ll have to see what it will cost to see someone this summer. I hate to say it but I want to see if I can get the ball rolling on this diagnosis stuff without telling them I’m trans… (is that a horrible idea?) Let’s just say I don’t want to be on that list given the way the US is going lately… My gender is none of their business and even barring government action, telling your doctor you’re trans unfortunately seems like an excellent way to get subpar medical care. Or maybe I’m needlessly paranoid but I’d rather be paranoid and wrong than the target of fascist repression or plain ol discrimination.

I still struggle with burnout to this day due to being an overworked IT contractor for years.

hahahahaha ha… ha… fuck

This video finally convinced me I probably have A(u)DHD. I already thought I was on the spectrum probably but didn’t feel any need to go to a psychiatrist for it (I don’t… like or trust them? not for any great reason necessarily I just have an aversion) but if there’s any chance ADHD meds help me I probably owe it to myself to go

I don’t know why this is what did it. probably the fact that the 2 month procrastination jobby is basically what I’m doing with a key part of my day job right now. Ruined my whole weekend and the mental block is still there.

Yessss! So glad it worked!

To explain the confusion: I actually pulled the entire lead tube out before separating the collet from the lead tube, (the main body/grip of the pencil is a separate piece of plastic!) so I had plenty of room to grab the collet with tools. However your way might be better, since as I recall it took a fair amount of force to pull the lead tube out the back, and after doing it a few times the two halves no longer seem to click together and stay very well.

yeah that’s definitely the toughest part… the collet needs to come out the front of the pencil, it can’t fit out the back. It is barbed (visible in this pic if you zoom way in) so it digs into the plastic pretty damn well, but it can be pulled straight out.

I basically just used brute force. it should be pretty safe to pull straight outwards on the collet by the ring part (the part that moves freely) since that way there’s no bending, its all metal on metal, in tension, and the thin members of the collet are pulled snugly together and stressed evenly. you can use a small pliers but you don’t want to squeeze too much. either grab the ring head-on and squeeze enough to get a grip, or use a sufficiently tiny pliers to grab from the side between the spring and the collet ring, not squeezing basically at all and just hooking the jaws of the pliers under the ring and pulling out. Some wiggling/wobbling the collet (while still pulling outwards so nothing bends) as you go could help but will probably make the fit looser when you go to put it back in so don’t go overboard.

I don’t think there’s a great way to push it out from the rear either, since behind it there’s a narrowing of the hole in the plastic to about the same size as the one on the back of the collet. Maybe if you had just the perfect 1.5mm rod or something but it would probably just buckle.

I cant use cashapp but I can give you a bump. let me know if you have something else like paypal or venmo

not in NY but I will bump

oh. on desktop at least it only “breaks” that one tab and re-opening the site in a different tab, or clicking on the homepage and then refreshing both gets it back to working.

Are you using it on a phone with it saved to your homescreen as an app or something?

if you just mean it isn’t following ohms law thats to be expected for a big inductive load. ac gets weird with wattage since with non-resistive loads the current draw will not perfectly align with the sine wave.

becoming a prepper but just for HRT

probably a deleted account then

yeah… I drove cheap worthless cars and have a clean driving record and insurance was still like $700/yr for liability only. In some states you can sorta get away with not having insurance for a little while but its a mess if you get caught. plus idk, $100 registration? cheapest to operate was probably just oil changes and gas but eventually other maintenance will always be needed (tires brakes bulbs, other fluids).

No car is ever cheap really, theres a reason the average cost of ownership is like $6k a year min

I knew a guy that worked at UPS and he said they didnt pull stuff and give it to law enforcement unless it like, broke open and was visibly drugs, or stank of weed bad enough they couldnt pretend not to smell it. But there might be programs at a higher level for cooperation, idk, and I’m sure they cooperate with requests/warrants

on one hand mail has maybe more legal protections against interception, on the other hand ups doesnt give a fuck about you shipping drugs and doesnt have this shit

cafiza? that stuff kinda scares me. I know its harsh enough to not be safe to use on certain metals, but yet I still end up getting it all over my hands whenever I use it basically

incredible ageism/misogyny on display in that headline, christ

for how long? more than likely you won’t get yourself killed, but its not zero risk either, you should really get them done (or diy) soon, say in the next 2 weeks, maybe a month if you really don’t drive much at all. I know one person who drove all the way until his were grinding metal on metal, he lived just fine but it was risky and probably cost him more to fix because of it (though idk, replacing rotors seems to be really common these days, they’re almost treated as normal wear I feel like, but if they’re in good shape and you’re DIYing it you can reuse them)

Once again the title of this paper from 2014 nails zionists:

“Even a Freak Like You Would Be Safe in Tel Aviv: Transgender Subjects, Wounded Attachments, and the Zionist Economy of Gratitude”

(its not actually that relevant in this case, buuuut: zionists and homophobia name a more iconic duo)

you could probably convince me it was lol but no thats a different anna: https://x.com/annakhachiyan