catter [she/her, they/them]

Been crying soooooooo much more lately

Despite that, I feel like vomiting all those sad emotions has made me find some joy again. Things are very difficult in my relationship because being trans will end it, but I have more support now than I ever have! I guess I just need to decide whether I’m “trans enough” for transitioning to be worth it

I also love hearing your excitement! It’s the energy I need :)

Hostile reminder to wear sunscreen as well

Not doing great this week. Hopeful next week will be better. All the comments here at least make me feel not alone :) hope you are doing great!

Thank you! I love being part of this community :)

Hope everyone else is having a great pride month! You have so much to be proud of, being your authentic self

This is my first pride, and I’m so excited! I tried to join last year before I knew I was not cishet but got rained out on the only event I could attend.

In other news, ordered bras to try :) I’m extremely excited 🥰

In a weird state where I keep thinking maybe I’m not trans and then literally just seeing a girl in the mirror lol. Is this acceptance? Where I’m not even thinking about it actively anymore, I just see the me I want to?

Got maam’d yesterday because of my hair 💖 completely boymoding, so got sir’d as soon as I turned around, but I will take it anyway haha

Having some good days here and there where I feel like I look like Aphrodite herself. Then other days…

Love you all. Hope your weekend is wonderful like you

I’m feeling this a lot too right now 💜 For me it is linked to depression as well. Sometimes I don’t feel like putting in the work to see myself in the mirror, even though I know it would make me happier

Glad you are feeling better

I would love some coordinated advice! I am unearthing my love for fashion and know almost nothing haha

Hoping for a time where I can love myself finally 💜

I love the rant, thank you for taking the time to write it all out 💜 Yeah, the main reason for Lexapro over Zoloft is the potential for sexual dysfunction.

Not to spill my guts too much but that is very important to me right now, and since I’m not medically transitioning at the moment, I’m not at risk of losing function otherwise. Thankfully I have a very proactive psychiatrist :) I appreciate the well wishes! Thank you so much 💖

So sorry to hear that :( it’s not helped by there being some seriously stressful things happening in my life, so there are real feelings of panic alongside these phantom instances.

I hope you can get some relief from it again

Lexapro. It’s the first one I’m trying, so hopefully there’s a better option or this just a temporary effect :)

I’ve noticed things feel so much slower now. I always had a lot of anxiety, and I’m wondering if it actually is doing something there.

Thank you for the encouragement

On a more positive note, loving my new dresses, and I have a couple extremely supportive friends who make me feel very loved 💜 Things will get better :)

I feel this so hard. Hugs

Had a magical weekend and feeling ready for this one. Hope you all are doing great!