moonlake [he/him]

I’m just a teenage dirtbag, baby 🇵🇸

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Cake day: August 7th, 2020

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  • I saw my life branching out before me like the green fig tree in the story. From the tip of every branch, like a fat purple fig, a wonderful future beckoned and winked. One fig was a husband and a happy home and children, and another fig was a famous poet and another fig was a brilliant professor, and another fig was Ee Gee, the amazing editor, and another fig was Europe and Africa and South America, and another fig was Constantin and Socrates and Attila and a pack of other lovers with queer names and offbeat professions, and another fig was an Olympic lady crew champion, and beyond and above these figs were many more figs I couldn’t quite make out. I saw myself sitting in the crotch of this fig tree, starving to death, just because I couldn’t make up my mind which of the figs I would choose. I wanted each and every one of them, but choosing one meant losing all the rest, and, as I sat there, unable to decide, the figs began to wrinkle and go black, and, one by one, they plopped to the ground at my feet.

    literally me denji-just-like-me

    except there’s like two figs on my tree doomer





  • This week my goal was to resume tracking nutrition and make sure to get enough calories. I managed to succeed, I tracked my nutrition almost every day in Cronometer and ate at maintenance.

    Other than that I didn’t get much done since I spent most of my free time watching the Euro football championship lol. It was a good time. I’m rooting for countries that have better (less dogshit) politics.

    Next week my goal is the same as this week - tracking nutrition and hitting my calorie goals.