i’m one step closer to the edge, and i’m about to…

BREAK

i don’t view it as a matter of right or wrong. the reason i asked is because it’s a question with a million different answers depending on who you’re talking to. i completely understand wanting to opt out of the bad stuff, especially with how things are going. i don’t view my being regularly clocked as some kind of duty i have, it’s just something that happens and i have to deal with it somehow. if i could get rid of that, i’d most likely do so

i’m glad you figured it out, i hope to get there someday

it’s nice to have community and embolden other people, especially in the circles i’m in, but i don’t know if i’m strong enough to accept making a statement without basically being forced to

when california breaks off from the US and floats into the ocean, we will finally have our paradise

i share a lot of those feelings and sometimes i wonder if it would ever be enough for me. maybe it’s good that i have to eat shit sometimes because i think i would be a terror if i never had to encounter any sort of hardship

okay, let me ask a question:

what does being visibly trans mean to you? like, emotionally. do you think it’s important? is it something that you’re comfortable with?

i am, in my opinion, pretty visibly trans doing a pretty visible thing and the only time i really remember that is when people talk about how it’s important. i make a mental note of basically every time i’ve positively affected a queer person doing my stuff and those moments are some of the few things i actually keep in my memory when i need motivation. the best thing about being trans is the sense of community, even if not all of us hold exactly the same values. we’re all on this ride together, for better or worse.

i think visibility is important too, i just don’t see living my life as some sort of project or praxis. i’m doing the only thing i’ve ever cared about, as the woman i was meant to be, and i’m not gonna let anything stop me, especially not a transphobe. it feels like cognitive dissonance and it’s progressed to the point where i literally forget i’m trans in public until i’m in a situation where i am acutely aware of it, either by someone mentioning it, being around another trans person, or being painfully, obviously alone in a sea of cis people. how the fuck do i keep forgetting a pillar of my existence despite actively being dysphoric almost every day? i’m torn between my identity being a foundational part of my personality and just wanting to forget about it when i’m out. i think passing fully would be great but i don’t know who i’d be if i lost that thread tugging at my heart when i’m waiting in line at the store or whatever.

maybe that was all rambling and i’m doing my best not to give away too much info but it is something i’d like to get some perspective on. would you rather pass fully and live your life without any of the hard parts of being trans or would you rather live with the hardship and be a beacon for other trans/queer people to know that we’re existing in the world and they can too?

they want a video interview for this bullshit. what a fucking joke

that’s most likely going to be some of the worst pain you will ever feel

most places have a promotional rate that resets every month or so, then after you go for the initial month they rely on you being dependent on them for income. definitely line up 3 spots and rotate them out over time. also, make sure to tell the truth about the frequency you’re donating. they all pull those stats from the same database

that’s ok, i have a good idea of what you’re talking about. i can definitely relate to leaving a piece of yourself out there and needing to recover afterwards

if you don’t mind me asking, are you talking about daily life or a stage show?

i have too much pride

when is shame month…

it’s not my favorite but sometimes you gotta play the hits so you can do what you really like

real red-blooded patriots would friendzone Brandon

anyone running those 4 games is a sub regardless of their time

i don’t think anyone in the show is a good guy. it’s all self-interest and revenge, even when they pretend to be moral

cumming in your pants breaks the volcel oath, sorry

goku has 2 kids and hasn’t kissed his wife once. explain that, liberal