I spoke about it before but whenever I have things I need to do, I find myself putting them off even when I’m out of the house in no small part because of how constantly busy traffic is. I may live in the middle of nowhere, but it’s car dependent so there are near constant traffic jams.
Even at the grocery store I find myself wandering aimlessly because of how constantly packed the place is. The gym? It’s full all the time too so it’s hard for me to actually do my workout. When I’m actually in traffic I feel myself getting more and more angry and irritated. I despise how poverty forces me to stay a basement dweller in rural Ohio, I despise how slow going from point a to point b is because of how busy traffic is at all times. It makes me sad seeing fire trucks not go anywhere because of how backed up traffic is.
I think it’s cutting a lot into my productivity in trying to find a job and get myself off my feet when I have to take care of other things, and I wonder if any neurodiverse people feel the same way.
Oh I agree, I’ve been plenty miserable. Your goal is to get from point a to point b safely while minimizing personal misery and exhaustion. But be miserable long enough and you’ll realize there’s not much you can change about your circumstances but only how you respond to them. Optimizing for self preservation means trying not to get too angry or worked up about things outside of your control and applying minimal effort in getting the job done.