this is a thread that i found on another website i post at. it can be really really interesting. i thought it deserved a place here.

post your random thoughts for the day here, or anything else that intrigues you.

i’m thinking about how #some of you will think this is NOT COMPUTER GAME RELATED and therefore a break of section 4 of #TheRules; however, NO: this is related to COMPUTER GAMES in at least ONE WAY.

  • pabloEnglish
    2·
    9 months ago

    Today, I am thinking about myself. Actually, I am thinking a lot about my self.

    I was laying in bed with my infant son, putting him to sleep and it was taking a long time. And the longer it took the more I just wanted him to sleep so I could Do Something Else.

    The Rage comes from the back of my arms and crawls up my neck and to my upper back. It is a Feeling and it is utterly despicable…but it hurts and it comes from Not Getting What I Want–Big Baby.

    So, in line with my recent thoughts, I decide to let the desire go. I decide to simply Not Be Frustrated.

    And I am enjoying laying with my son, watching him wiggle, and listening to him proudly proclaim, “Big And Small Are Opp. O. Sites.”

    Yes, they are, buddy.

    However, The Rage is still there. It’s different now, it is no longer in my thoughts. But my neck hurts and my arms hurt and I can’t really say I’m feeling anything but pain. I am not frustrated with my son’s elongation of sleeptime, I am not let down with myself or guitly, I am not happy nor am I sad.

    I am just in pain.

    Then he goes to sleep. I kiss him. I pick him up and place him into his crib. What a sweet angel.

    And The Rage had no reason to stay. I felt it recede from my neck and shoulders back down to my arms where it dissipated like cotton candy in street puddles.