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For some reason that I’m not sure of myself this was the week that finally hit right and I felt like I should start caring for myself again rather than just not giving a fuck and hoping I die in a few years as a result. Last time I gave a shit was probably 2019 but after getting fired and COVID and everything I just haven’t cared. I hope maybe I can keep this up for a bit and also help my mother with it as well since we’ve both been bad influences on each other for a while now.
I’ve gone a solid 5 days now limiting how much I eat to 2k calories when I’m pretty sure I normally average around 3k. Today I even stopped myself from just ordering out and rationalizing that it was probably close to my allotment left for the day. Today was more of a struggle though since I started getting lightheaded and ravenously hungry so I allowed myself a bit of chocolate and that helped me last until dinner.
My mother signed me up for so many of those when I was younger because they offered immediate employment and then when I was placed on the call it was the shadiest sounding shit, then there were the non-scam but also scam sales rep things where they called you a manager, offered intense executive training to fast track you to the top of the org but you were just going door to door trying to sell some shitty product.