Have any queer vibes to share? Here’s your place! hexbear-pride

Talk about what’s happening queerly in your life - like coming out, getting HRT, questioning, and all that good stuff.

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  • stigsbandit34z [they/them]@hexbear.netEnglish
    16·
    1 year ago

    I wish I was less autistic so I could at least come out as nonbinary, but the crippling fear of being perceived as such is too much I swear to god

    This is why it is so nonsensical for people to keep telling me “stop caring what other people think” because what other people think and their perceptions of me quite literally shape my reality

    Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

    • Moss [they/them]@hexbear.netEnglish
      10·
      1 year ago

      this is me exactly but idk if im autistic. i worry so much about what people would think about me if i changed my name and apperance

  • regularassbitch [she/her]@hexbear.netEnglish
    16·
    1 year ago

    i feel like i’m kinda in between worlds right now. i’m okay hanging out with the cis fellas but they are just entirely too gross sometimes. i want to hang out with more women but every time i do so in real life things go up in flames. i think i have maybe 4 real life friends who are women and i need to increase that number

  • RION [she/her]@hexbear.netEnglish
    15·
    1 year ago

    i find myself even more frustrated with the job search because of my apparent non-cisness. without an income i can’t live on my own, and i don’t feel comfortable exploring my gender while living with my mom. love to have my identity suppressed by material realities agony-soviet

  • Red_Sunshine_Over_Florida [he/him]@hexbear.netEnglish
    15·
    1 year ago

    I feel myself becoming more comfortable being bi. Like I can imagine myself more and more being in romantic relationships with guys than in the past. It feels rather exciting. Even daydreaming about it does.

    • daisy@hexbear.netEnglish
      9·
      1 year ago

      It’s great, isn’t it? It’s true self-care. Not in the “sit on a couch all weekend snacking and drinking” sense that the phrase has seemingly devolved into, but in the true and healthy sense.

      • Red_Sunshine_Over_Florida [he/him]@hexbear.netEnglish
        11·
        1 year ago

        I feel kind of liberated in the sense that I really don’t feel as beholden to conform to the hetero gender norms around dating women. Instead, I just imagine dating the person who I have the most mutual attraction and comfort around. They could be any gender now. That’s self care in the sense that I am relieving myself of the anxieties around that.

        I’m kind of new to looking at myself as part of a queer community. Yet, I feel more and more a profound sense of gratitude for those comrades who have fought so many battles so that everyone can have a place to be themselves.

  • PrincessCharlotte [she/her, he/him]@hexbear.netEnglish
    14·
    1 year ago

    I think I’ve come to some sort of conclusion regarding the crisis I’ve been having over the past few weeks. Even if I was always gendered correctly regardless, I think HRT and surgery are still things I would want and be happier for seeking out. I do feel confident that I’m making the right decisions, and I’m happy I spent this time considering what I want out of my transition.

  • sky@codesink.ioEnglish
    14·
    1 year ago

    My wife’s girlfriend and one of her other girlfriends came over this weekend and we all got drunk and had a wonderful evening chatting about mental health and getting to know each other.

    It was nice. Polyamory is so cool. 🥰

  • 🎀 Seryph (She/Her)@lemmygrad.mlEnglish
    14·
    1 year ago

    This week is when I get kicked out. Happened sooner than I expected it. I still have a few days before I need to actually leave but that’s not much consolation. I was packing my suitcase this morning and was close to hyperventilating the whole time. So I did some small euphoric things to give myself some comfort and it worked to calm my breathing but not much else. Right now I’m just sitting at my desk unable to really do anything even though I have a lot of homework to get through this week and I need to send out more job applications. I can’t even manage to force myself to play a game or read until I can get the motivation to do something. I feel probably the worst I’ve ever felt when not outright sick.

    The one saving grace is that I’m on break from classes all week and alone at home so I at least don’t have to feel ashamed about it like I usually would if I was around people.

    • 🎀 Seryph (She/Her)@lemmygrad.mlEnglish
      2·
      1 year ago

      Things feel much better now. Been a day since I left and while I cried a bit it wasn’t as bad as the previous days. My friends have been really helpful and we had a nice day out shopping for necessities. Probably going to stay with them for a few weeks then rent out the place I’ve been looking at, I just need to get a job for next semester first.

      I also decided to start a journal yesterday since I always wanted to but wanted to wait until it made sense. I figure becoming independent is the most sensible time to ever do it so I took a spare journal that I was planning on using for RPG stuff and wrote in it last night. It was very, very nice. I didn’t realise how cathartic it would be to write my feelings down like that. Like I’ve vented by ranting to friends (and more recently here) but writing in the journal gives me a stronger feeling somehow. I’m gonna have to start adding lines to the journal though, my handwriting is too messy for the simple dots it has

      On the whole feeling hopeful, just took a bit to get through the other emotions to reach this point. I’m sure my next updates won’t be as doom and gloom as the last few have been.

  • Fruitbat [she/her]@hexbear.netEnglish
    12·
    1 year ago

    I kind of really want to play around with makeup again. It was really fun to do last time like a week or two ago or whenever when my dad left. Maybe I can do it when he’s asleep. Be fun to do like a goth look

  • rtstragedy [fae/faer, she/her]@hexbear.netEnglish
    8·
    1 year ago

    sorry if this is the wrong place to post … after that thread last week (or was it just a few days ago??) i’m trying to become vegan, i’m assuming that will have some effect on hormone levels? does anyone have experience with that?

    • ElectronNumberSeven [she/her]@hexbear.netEnglish
      11·
      1 year ago

      As far as I’m aware being vegan doesn’t really have any sort of effect on hormone levels. The whole thing about estrogen in soy is just a myth unfortunately. I’ve been vegan for 5 years and on HRT for 14 months with no problems.

      • TerminalEncounter [she/her]@hexbear.netEnglish
        4·
        1 year ago

        Yeah, I can’t think of any mechanism in terms of diet and feminizing HRT. If anything, from what I’ve read in the literature, red meat (probably meat in general) increases T production - except I’ve also seen research that it drops sperm counts? So I dunno, I’d say go vegan with 0 concerns about how it effects or doesn’t hormone production. Especially if you regularly test hormone levels anyway.

  • lilypad [she/her, null/void]@hexbear.netEnglish
    6·
    1 year ago

    Currently seeing if my relationship can survive given all the changes of transition, plus trying to fix years of codependency/enmeshment. Its… Intense and difficult and we both love each other but the relationship isnt working and its both of ours first serious relationship and it went from a straight relationship to a lesbian relationship and were figuring out that we both have major bottom vibes in like all of our everything and that is, well, difficult to deal with.