I was playing an online game where you can customize your appearance, and the default avatar was a featureless, not particularly gendered, cute looking cartoon person. I tried making it look like how I actually look, but then I realized, “Wait, I kind of prefer the featureless androgynous humanoid cartoon – that’s closer to what I actually feel like”. If you asked me how I imagine myself inside, the honest and silly answer is that I feel like a “Scrimblo Bimblo”-type genderless cartoon/video game character.

Then go for that if you want to? You aren’t alone. Things like nullification surgeries are a thing people get (seen multiple people on the agender subreddit mention it), for example of evidence of the demand.

I’m not 100% sure if “woman” is the right label for me, but I’m not totally against it either – it just feels odd.

I think a lot of people weird weird using that label when their body is so masculine. I’m open to the possibility that I’d start accepting that label if people started gendering me that way, but currently I’m not really interest in the label.

The prospect of medically transitioning and still identifying as nonbinary is… frightening, but fear seems like a bad reason not to do it.

Was something I dealt with as well. Made me feel like a bit of an imposter during my HRT appointment. I intend to come out to my immediate family (already out to my brother and cousin) before HRT starts to have significant effects, but I’m not really sure what I’m coming out as. So I plan to just come out as “someone taking HRT”.