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Today: a short yap about computer hardware:
Damn I love the AM4 socket its so upgradable yay, bought a Ryzen 9 5900X for our old desktop soon to be homelab and so excited for it.
Computers are fun! (and expensive)
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Read I Love Amy, was good but very sad at parts
At like 4 AM a few nights ago, sleepless, I frantically penned down an apparently brand new idea for a gender-neutral pronoun in Esperanto, despite not being a proficient Esperantist. It’s like this:
- geu estas neduuma esperantisto (they are a nonbinary Esperantist)
- mi ŝatas geun. (I like them)
- ĉu vi vidis gees katon? (have you seen their cat?)
To quickly explain the idea: Esperanto has a prefix that (unofficially) forms gender-neutral words, and a suffix that (mostly unproductively) forms pronouns, so I figured that the most obvious way to create a gender-neutral pronoun in Esperanto would just be to smash these two affixes together: ge- + -u = geu. Simple as that.
To me this seemed like such an obvious idea in hindsight, that when I looked into it the next morning, I was genuinely surprised to find that apparently no-one else had ever come up with this idea before me: all the other neopronouns coined in Esperanto thus far apparently just smash the gendered pronouns together, or take the gendered pronouns and replace the first letter randomly. This approach comes with its own advantages and disadvantages, but in any case my proposal isn’t really trying to “compete” with these other neopronouns, any more than they competes with xe, you know?
In completely unrelated news, did you all know that Margaret McDonald (any/all) is non-binary? I don’t know when xe came out as non-binary, but xe’s an English-language anime dub VA who I have heard in a lot of different things over the years. I was just watching the movie Tamako Love Story with my mom, in which McDonald plays the titular Tamako Kitashirakawa: I couldn’t remember the VA’s name, so I looked it up, and that’s how I found out that thon was non-binary. Among many other credits, ae also plays Miho Nishizumi in Girls & Panzer — which was frankly the only name I could pull out of my butt, I literally said, “Tamako sounds like whoever it was who did Miho” — and McDonald also voiced Rikka Takanashi in the ever-goated Love, Chunibyo & Other Delusions, and he also played Sachi Momoi in Maria Holic, which interestingly enough is an anime dub that just straight up drops the T slur at one point.
So yeah, nonbinary pog.
Also, e’s pan.
discussions of transphobia
how to tell a cis person that trans people should be allowed to compete in sports because sports are arbitrary competitions they’ve attached excessive weight to and they should get over it
Saw a posting for a job I actually want instead of just needing to survive, but I don’t think I’m qualified Might just apply anyway. If they laugh and throw out my resume it’s not like I’ll know any way.
she full on my metal until i alchemist: brotherhood
Behold! As of today, I’m both biologically and legally female. So fuck you, fascists! Victory is mine!
Having top surgery 1 week from now, I’m very nervous but excited !!!
dysphoria
I feel like never looking at myself is giving me a very warped sense of myself.
I either pass more than I think I do and I’m inflicting needless mental anguish on myself, or I pass even worse than I think and knowing that will destroy me.
Maybe I’ll hazard a look when I’m 50kg and been on this dose of hrt for a year.fox news: the school nurse is giving kids bottom surgery if they ask nicely
actual school nurse: i literally cannot give you an ibuprofen or else the entire school district is getting sued to kingdom fuck
first bit of gardening done this year ^_^
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self harm / suicidal thoughts (yes again 😭 sorry I keep doing this)
I’ve gone back to self harm after about two months clean. Honestly idgaf about being clean or not right now, I want the suffering to stop. There is only one way for that to happen.
I have never been able to deal with anything. I’ve always been weak and pathetic. I don’t think there’s anything that could have gone better for me, to make me not turn out like this.
I just don’t want to feel like this anymore. Why can’t I be free. Why is dying just… Nothing. There is no bliss, no great life, it’s just over. It’s just suffering my whole existence and then it’s over. Why don’t I get to not suffer.
I’m pan and nonbinary and trans feminine
You all know that already but just felt like reiterating
I’M THEM
I’VE BEEN THEM
I WILL CONTINUE TO BE THEM
Had a dream featuring a cute robot lady and she kept threatening to bite me, but like in a threatening way and I just kept swooning for her
I did get measured today fora bra after work. It was terrifying, but I did manage to do it. I now have a definitive bra size and I love it and hate it. 38I/40H. I didn’t expect that large of a cup size. Kind of gave my mind rest so I don’t have to worry about them being too small. Also, I will never buy another bra under $70.
I was terrified and nervous, but the shopkeeper did an excellent job taking care of me. I’m shocked I was able to do it. Maybe things are turning around. I hope so.